As an online content creator (a fancy name for a blogger), we sometimes feel as if our online persona doesn’t equal our offline persona. As much as we try to display the person that washes the dishes, clothes and kitchen floors, it can get muddled when we post and realize that we may have written something that would never be uttered from our lips. Little quips, funny jokes and amusing anecdotes are created quickly online, while we may not produce them speedily in a normal conversation.
My own personal struggle is showing my true personality through both outlets. I’m a goofball. My kids definitely get it from me and I have no qualms about it. I’m also a lover of all things amazing, wonderful and positive. I have no issue standing up for what I believe in, whether it’s our frugal lifestyle, my son’s worth in this world, or my love of bananas and anti-love of avocados. I’m awkward and funny. I’m sensitive and loving. While I know who I am, I still fear that I don’t portray the real “me” online. One thing we need to pay attention to is not how we think we’re portrayed, but how our friends, online and otherwise, view us.
The picture above was taken by a dear online friend. Lucrecer is an amazing photographer, an expert in self-portraits and although she may not admit it, a master photographer. After the Viewfinder sessions during BlogHer this past weekend, she asked the beautiful Serena and me to take a walk outside so we could talk photography and take in the local sights. Within a few minutes, she’d convinced Serena and I to do some posing for her while the “light was good.” In the 5 minutes of our impromptu session, she’d captured the real me in a photo. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to look at a picture and see the person I am inside. It’s also been a long time since I’ve seen a picture of me that will display who I really am to others. This is that picture, and it was an online friend that captured it. A friend with the ability to bring the best out of others and place them in the eye of her lens.
So this is me. Goofy, loving, sensitive, truthful, flawed, happy, and at peace. As another friend said in her keynote during BlogHer, it’s so important to be an instrument of peace, even in your little space here on the internet. I hope that’s what you see in me, in who I really am.
“O Lord, make me an instrument of Thy Peace.” – Saint Francis of Assisi